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Firecracker
The other day I swear to God
I got a letter in the mail that
Said register with us or you're
Gonna go to jail
You'll be put inside a cage, then
Forced to enlist
Well I laughed out loud, said I
Won't comply
To be labeled as one of those
Who qualify to be shipped off to
Fight some fucking war
'Cause war's not about policy-religion,
It's about economy and I'm not dying
to set your country free
I'll never bow to your expectations
I never have I never will
I'm not a puppet, pawn, or
Figure head I'm a man of my
Own free will
Our freedoms are slowly surrendered
As they take more than their fill
How much power is ever enough for
The men, the men on Capitol Hill.
They're cuttin's back on welfare
IL legalizing harmlessness, am I the
Only one to see there's something
Wrong with this
I don't have the answers won't
Pretend to say I will but to put
My trust in government, I think I'd
rather kill
Off mighty word democracy
Spells freedom for you and me
The books have all been written
And the prophets denied
Little by little watch this state
Begin to fall as we awaken from
This dream and find ourselves
Nailed to the wall
Oh firecracker patriotic lire, you were
Burnin' bright the day the country
Died, in all your glory in all your
Pride.
Light the way torch of Liberty
Light the sky for the whole world
To see, in all your glory in all
Your pride.
Better Days
Some days I'm up, some days I'm
Down, some days I don't give a fuck
About anything.
Cause yesterday I gave everything
Now I want somethin' back
Wanna end it all, wanna save the world.
Wanna take what was never mine.
I wanna shout it all out to the world.
I wanna keep it all inside
Here I am!
I'm just lookin' for
Better Days, the kind
That never seem to come
My way
So here I am
I'm just lookin' for better
Days-the kind that never
Seem to come just when
You need em' most
I remember a time, not too long
Ago when all my day's would only
Start in one shade of black-
When all the thoughts that dragged
Through my head seem to wash away
The sun
Always a dollar short and one split
Second out of time
Exiled in a memory-tonight I'll
Drink-Drink myself to sleep
I'm just part of all the madness
Here I know, that anything I
Say or do won't ever change a thing
When the words have all been
Spoken and intentions smoked away
I find myself in the same ol' shit.
The same ol' shit again
Maybe today won't be the same
Maybe I'll just stand my ground
Maybe another time another place
I'll float myself right outta here
Under the influence of reality.
Some days I drive myself insane
Some days I'm all I've got
Some days I'm tired of seeing
The world take everyting I've got
It's hard to get it right when doin'
Wrong is all you know
I'll take my chance when tomorrow
Comes with a little luck I'll grow
Solitaire
I hurt myself again today,
Feelin' a little numb I could
Use the pain.
I always find myself in this
Little bind.
It's been a few weeks since
You've been around,
So here I sit with my hands
Strapped down patiently awaiting
Our secert games
We used to play
All alone, so here
I sit all tied up,
All alone with all my thoughts,
I do not mind if this goes
On.
I think about about what I'll say to you
When you finally decide to
come my way,
I'm sitting around all painted
like a fool,
And I don't know how I got
This way, and I don't know how
much more I wanna take.
But I know you'll shoot me down,
and bury me before I get too high.
So here I sit all tied up all
Alone with my thoughts when
Will I learn to walk away
>From the things I do that make
Me feel the way, I feel when
I'm with you? Tonight it's me, myself
and I,
All this pain I seem to put
Myself through, all the ways I
Find to submit to you
Cat o' nine tails gettin' old
And I don't know how I got
This way I don't know how much more
I wanna take.
I got a millon ways to tame
Myself and a million nights to
Try
When will you come around
To do the things you do to me
I hate this game of solitaire.
Never Good Enough
She's a big girl and she know
Just what she wants
She's gonna get her shit together
gonna get out of Hollywood
Daddy's little angel won't be commin'
Home tonight.
When your nowhere to be found
I'll know you've givin up the
Fight
She can't hold here own she
Says she's gotta run away from
Here
The city's gotten the best of
Her just one too many times.
When everything's been said and
Done and the dust has finally cleared
I'll be your fool just one more
Time I'll be waitin' by the phone.
Cause I don't know
And I don't care
I'll do anything you watn
Never good enough for you.
Well she don't need nobody anyway.
That's cause no one understands her
She's somewhere in outer space
Knock Knockin at my head again this
Time you won't get in
She's in orbit now and I'm underground
Just waitin' by the phone
Everything she sees is everything
She wants
There's a riddle in her eyes sometimes
I try to figure it our
She's got a mountain of toys reachin'
To the sky doesn't keep her high
So the needle and the spoon are gonna
make
You feel alright
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Gear Box
I remember you used to pray
For me now you turn your
Head away
Expectations that I never met
Forgotten promises you never
Kept
I know someday there'll be a
Time when you can look
Me in the eye
Now I write these words just
To keep it clear
In a jaded song you won't
Ever hear
I never wanted your forgiveness
You did what you ahd to I did
What I could now we've gone
Our separate ways
I never found comfort in your
Acceptance if times a healer
Then I'll sit and wait for
Your poison words to scar.
A notebook filled with a million
Words sits quietly by my side.
Like a loaded gun with the wrong
Intentions they tell me life is pain
I forgot a long time ago, but
Everyday I'm reminded of the
Way
You put me down, the way you
Put me out, the way you torched
My fucking world
chorus
I don't need your lies don't
Need your promises
Don't want your open arms don't
Need your sacred ways and all
I need is all I am today.
What was once belief has now
Turned to grief
And there ain't nothin' more that
You could say
Look to myself for everything I need
Ain't lookin' back on anything.
So you think you got me all figured
Out and you think you know what this
Hate is all about
Don't try to understand, don't try to
Comprehend the answer is my words.
When the world comes crashin' down
All around
And I need a quiet place to hide.
You'll find me deep inside my head
Under a tree of thought in a world of
Pain.
I never wanted you here
I never needed you here
So when you think of me try
To understand
I never wanted your help I
Never needed your hand to
Guided me there your maze
Of lies
To guide me through your
Narrow world
I forgot a long time ago, now
Every day I'm reminded of the
Way you put me down the way
You put me out the way you
Torched my whole world.
Monster
Time it makes you old, experience
Makes you wise.
And it's only a fool who judges life by
What he sees in other people's eyes.
The decisions that you cast effect
The outcome of your game the
Only person who's gonna think about
You is the one that's standin' in
Your shoes
Live by the sword die by the
Sword
I'm a weapon of my set. The
Only family that I've ever known
Is the gun that's by my side
Little big man he's not alone
Now, he's all grown up his stories
Written all along these city walls.
Found unity, he's gained a brotherhood
As they gather to beat you down
The fists reign hard, the fightin'
Never stops.
There's no mercy in this town
And I don't know when it's gonna' end
For me
This side of town is all I know
It's all I see
If I go on like this I'm gonna'
End it all one day
It's my destiny it's my reality
It's society.
I wear colors proud but stare
Me down
I've got a million scars to prove
My pain
You think you know who I am
Try walking a mile in my shoes.
Quick on the draw
Never walk alone
Know your enemy
Never be afraid, it's what they always say
Till they come around for you.
Ghetto birds light the evening
Sky as the sun begins to fall
Another night he'll spend in this
Jungle with his back up against the wall
Bring Out Your Dead
One brief recollection of all the
People in my life that have
Come and gone
One brief fleeting moment of
People I've loved and people that
I have wronged
Long lost are loved ones gone
But this bird cannot seem to
Mend it's broken wings so the
Lust for life dissipated and
A new greed rises for the
Needful things.
Don't wanna think about it, I
Indulge myself
Distraction eases pain, bury my
Emotions to protect myself.
Till I can't feel a fucking thing
I've dared to dream I've tried
To live
But I've played it safe again
Just another slave to my vices now
Bring out your dead
Voices wither and crack then die
Ringin' in my ear would sing me
Soft asleep
Deathly silence now is all I hear
Has inspiration finally eluded me
chorus
My addiction, my illness, my only
Trusted friend
My addiction my illness my only
Childhood fiend.
Your twisted warm embrace
Engulfing all I tried to be
My body's breaking under
Arms that will not set me free
Locked in this cage that I've
Built myself
Constructed out of twisted cold
Reminders of a Life once lost
But I've found my way again.
Here among the wreckage and the
Vampires
I'll play it safe again, just another
Slave to my vices now.
Rottin' Apple
Hey tired man I see you walk
Alone.
The wrinkles on you face, a map
Of all your pain
Your expression becomes an open book
Of time, filled with pages of forgotten
Hopes.
Good intentions, regret, disillusion with
Life, animosity, unbridled purity.
All these things I swear I see
And your eyes tell me all you could
Never be.
So many times I've stared
Into the eyes of the young, the old.
The lonely and the wise.
Just to find a glimpse of all I
Have not seen
Just to find some peace for my
Jaded made.
Don't wanna live my life by
the second hand of a clock that's
Long since past me by
You say I've got to stay in line
We'll your line is going nowhere and
So are you.
Choices decisions made smokin' away
The pain inside
Sit back and watch it all go by
We could never find the peace
Of mind we need
We hid it all away for another day
Sit back everything's gonna be alright.
Rivers of pain map your agin'
Skin your expression a journal
Of where you've been
All your dreams and your chances
Lost
You walk along that dotted line
Do you remember a time
When you used to dream?
Do you remember a time when
You used to Live?
All your dreams and chances they're
All gone.
So you gave it all away unable
to say all you wanna say
Look at you now - turned our to be
Face of misery
Look at you now a rottin Apple's all
I see.
Radio Suicide
Two silhouettes stand tall against
A gray November sky
Utopian suburban teenage wasteland blues.
You turn to me and sigh, the boredom
Growin' in your eyes
As a voice sings songs of splendor
>From the radio
I hear that voice again submerging
>From the stereo
Invisible electric life flows
Right through me
Then for a moment I forget about
Just where I'm at and the world fallin'
Around looses al urgency.
It's just another transmission from
A place we all want to be.
It takes control then its spits
Me back to reality
I hear the music
Then I close my eyes
It's jsut another radio suicide on
The airwaves.
I turned it on-invisible electric life
then the song comes on the radio
The signal takes control-heartbeat
Starts to slow
You hear the words reverberating
In your mind
Twisted electric waves pulse from the
stereo
As a vioce screams out loud
Everything is not alright
Forget about the static pulsing
In your ear
Forget everything you see and hear
it's just another radio suicide
Somnombulance
I lie awake again no sleep tonight
I find no peace in the quiet absence
Of the light
A million whispered thoughts floatin'
Through my head
A million seconds has passed me
By in my bed
One two three now it's four in the
Mornin' as the emptiness swallows
Me on more time
I grow a little older with every
Second that passes
I die a little every time I
Close my eyes
No sanctuary in my dreams
No quiet place to hide
Every night I swear it's the same
And I don't know where I'll be tonight
But I know sleep will come if
I walk all night
It's been a thousand hours maybe
Even more
Since I fell victim to all the
Thoughts I tried to ignore
Nameless faces and sounds, voices
Screamin' in pain, huddled shadows
And sirens voices calling my name.
Well I can't sleep but I'm not
Awake to this hazy dim version
of reality
Hypnotized by everything I
Can't control
Desensitized by everything
That controls me
Chorus
Well I can't sleep so
It's here in the dark
I'll make my peace with all that
I've learned
Sanity's just another dream
Away
Maybe with time it'll be alright
Everynight
I swear it's the
Same
I walk all night and never ever
Get anywhere
It's taken all my strength
It's taken all the life that used
To flow deep inside of me
So
In my dreams I'll find my peace
All of my days are filled with no rest
Maybe with time it'll be alright
Six Feet
A family man in the midst of
A total breakdown
Seeks refuge inebriated state
As he thinks to himself how did
Life pass me by - somewhere down
The line I forgot how to live
Now every day is just another chore,
Another day, another week, antother
year.
The world slowly turns, but this
Rut never ends - one blink of an
Eye then it's gone.
So he puts his faith in the Almighty
Lord up above, he's told for all good
Men Heaven awaits
"Well I can't wait any longer when's
It my turn to see the light that'll
Come and take my troubles away?"
Now he spends his days preaching
What he does not believe, to a world
That's forgotten how to live
And he can't understand the empty
Feelin' inside that seems to grow
Every hour, every day.
"What's it take to be a man, when
Everything I'm taught I can't believe
And everything is thrown right in my face?
I wake up everyday, I live here among
The dead and I am one of them. Is
This how it's gotta be? For you and me
Open your eyes take a look
Around think nice thoughts then
It's off to work I go!"
Now it's back to the hustle and it's
Back to the beat
It's back to another forty hour
Week.
"Soon that weekend will come
I'll get to have a little fun then
it's back to my forty hour grave"
Speed Ball
No miracles gonna save you now
No profound word's gonna show
You how
No revelation's gonna change the way
You live
No wise man's gonna come
And take your hand
No awakening lies in store for you
No effort you submit will deliver you.
No picture worth a million words
No Salvation worth a million lives
Will ever open your eyes so that
You could really see
You've come this far doin what
You do so why change now
Your doin fine
I'll candy coat another rhyme for
You.
You're on a speedball
And it's goin' straight to hell
And I don't wanna get in your
Way
You're on a rocket and it's goin'
Straight down
You've lit the fuse set
The fire now there's no one
Left to save you.
Someone pulled the chair right
Under you, now you're swingin' by the
Neck and still you continue to smile
Step right up and get your fix
Climb back to your crucifix
We're burnin' the world down tonight.
No new improved better lookin' god
No antiestablishmentariant?
Punk rock song will save the world
Tonight
We're on a speedball goin' to hell
A one-way trip to Candyland and you
Ain't got no reason to fight
You don't have the answers
You don't have the solutions
Somehow it always ends up
Working out.
Wrong Side of the Tracks
Tell me what you want from me
Cause I don't know exactly
What you want me to be
There's no place left for me
To go now so why don't you
come kick me around for
A while
Down here you won't see me cryin'
Ain't got no time for that
I've planned a million ways to
Sacrifice myself now
Seems every time I try to gain a
Little ground-I wind up right back
Where I never thought I'd be
Down here it feels
Alright
Plenty of time
To find another way.
Self-destruction's the only way
I know how to
Maybe another time, maybe another
Day, I'll be strong enough to leave
This place behind me
Like a clown I'll raise my glass
To the sky and toast another night
Serenadin' my reflection
Chorus
Plenty of time to find another
Way to seize the day without this bottle
of redemption
So tonight I'll stumble my way
Home, maybe tomorrow I'll find
Myself a job
But tonight I got the moon
And the stars I got a song in
My head and a pocket full of nothin'
Well I got no plans got
No peace of mind
I gotta find a may outta here
Took a little more than I gave
Away
Now it's up to me to get up and
Try to get it right.
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Twisted By Design
Too Close to See
A cup of two day old coffee
You're feeling like yourself again
You're still on your own
You've survived another night
In this dingy room with the same four walls
lookin' in the mirrors gettin' easier these days
that old friend anger is losing its hold on you
and it's good to see you're still standing strong
not too long ago you were tearing at a world
that would never let you in
strung out, outcast turned away
you kept your face to the ground
and fought the world with your silence
and so the seasons change
and the people change
and the good times come
and the good times go
found yourself in a winless race
fighting for a cause you never believed
its easy to regret not so easy to forget
all the stupid things that used to hold you down
you gotta brake that chain and move on
cuz I know I've seen it in your eyes before
to surrender now to throw it all away
is to sacrifice but you can't repay
in a world that don't owe you shit
you gotta think for yourself
and fight every bit of that piece of mind
that keeps you going on
gets you outta bed and out that door
step back take a look around and soon
you'll find there's something more
that'll come your way
with a little patience
it will all work out for you in the end
this is my song to a friend that never needed anyone until now
some times you get too close to see
a different side of what life could be
and if you stare too long
it all becomes a blur and its easy to forget
just who we are
don't stare to hard, just take a look around...
Exhumation of Virgina Madison
No one knows where
I buried my sweet Virgina Madison
the winter chill falls over me
and keeps me numb inside
under the moon by the edge of town
she quietly waits for me
I promised it wouldn't be too long
till I returned to sleep with her
she says she don't wanna live no more
well I don't mind
no I don't mind
so now I'm waitin' for the crack of dawn
to head on back there
to the place where me and her will always be
now I got my Sunday vest
and I'm headed out that door
dig my fingers deep in soil just to get to her
all dressed in black and she's so pale
she's waiting there for me
a blanket of soil covers us
to fall asleep in eternity
and now I close my eyes
when I awake with a snap it was all a dream
I gotta empty bottle of something under me
I gotta really bad headache
my clothes are soaking wet
at times like this I wish I hadn't slept
star locked gaze, uneasy hands
then the dream fades away
and leaves my head
another riddle another dream
another fucked up fantasy
gotta learn to stay away from all this tv
Deville
This god damn car is broken down again
looks like I'm sleepin' in the back
and I'll be dreamin' of a better place
only to call you in the morning
with the same excuse again
by the side of the freeway
watchin' all the cars go by
I think tomorrow will be the day
I get my shit together
and give up this crying game
I've been here before
I know I'll be here again
I don't know why
but it don't feel the same
For one moment I can see clearly
the weight of the world
don't seem so bad
then I find myself here
right back where I started from again
indecisions's no solution
the days that lay ahead
so I begin to scramble
in my head for the answers
only to find myself shutdown
by the same mistakes again
lookin over my shoulder
for the things that pass me by
I know tomorrow will be the same
I'll find a new excuse
to make the same mistakes again
I've been here before
I know I'll be here again
so many wasted hours
so many wasted intentions
chorus.
Mind of My Own
It's four o' clock
the t.v.'s on
my mind is shut off
and my own thoughts are gone
I change the channel
I change my mind
I change my life
I wanna leave it all behind
cause I don't have a mind of my own
I am influenced by
everything I see
and I can't help it now
everything in my life
just thinks for me
can't help this habit
I'm in love with my disease
worshiping my idle time
a life I cannot seize
trapped by depression
and I sleep all day
but xanax, valium, attavan
makes it all ok
it's so much more
than a cry for attention
no loving hands can sooth this ache
so much more than a war with the world
it's my own degradation
it's my own self hate
I preach my pessimism
right out loud to anyone who'll listen
I'm not afraid to be alive
I'm afraid to be alone
late at night my monsters find me
from under the bed or out of my past
all alone with nobody to talk to
sanity gets put to the test
I close my eyes but I'm still haunted
sometimes I get too twisted to sleep
as all my world crumbles all around me
inspirations become admissions of defeat
cuz I don't have a mind of my own
everything in my life just thinks for me
Reason to Believe
I never had a reason to believe in anything
I never had a cause that I could fight for
I never had too much of anything to call my own
a drunk mother and father of four
all my life I grew up watchin' others dreams come true
and how I waited for my day in the sun
every day I worked harder
and I got further in debt
till I realized that day was never gonna come
your written off lost cause
sold us down the river
got no hope to offer us
tore down without grief
what's a generation without a reason to believe
they tore down all my walls
and then they made all my hatred a crime
debilitating us with all their complacency
our thoughts become mundane
our generation thinks the same
our minds anesthetized by apathetic t.v.
No wars to fight
steel bridges won't burn
the beliefs we uphold
are lies we never learn
the only hope for the future
leaves us reason to grieve
what's a generation without a reason to believe
Crossroads
I find myself here once again
under clouds of indecision
reflections looking right through me
I can't believe the lies we tell ourselves
the music used to be everything
the music used to heal
but business soon becomes reality
and nothing left inside is real
dysfunction's all that we see true
allow my best to see this through
got nothing left to give you
now I gotta find a better way
turned against each other
with the games we all like to play
looking straight ahead
It's hard to see things eye to eye
not at all what it used to be
something that I can't deny
and now I leave it up to you
allow my best to see this through
got nothing left to give you
now I gotta find a better way
before I lose another part of me
Paperwalls
A look of discontentment fills your hazel eyes
as I ask for the millionth time what's goin' on?
you seem to be confused
about just where you stand with me tonight
as we tear apart all that wasn't lost to another fight
and so we turn against each other
once again you run and I go hide
talkin' to myself again
bout all the things I should've said
and I wait for you
I wanna know where this is going
and do we still have a chance
to save what we haven't lost again
I made a promise to myself not to let this go
but now I need to see this through
to burn these paper walls of doubt
Chorus
My fucked up head is spinning round
and all my thoughts just keep me down
here on your doorstep
I'm drunk again
I know you're sick of all my shit
and I know you wanna end this
so tell me right now where do you stand?
I know your tired of this waiting game
and I know your tired of all my ways
I know your tired of it all
just tell me now
I wanna know where this is going
and do we still have a chance
to save what we haven't lost
inside all these paper walls we build
and all the ashes that have spilled get in the way
Chorus
Ice Burn
I can feel the murky grip
of a cold depression comin' down
I can feel her hands around my neck
shake me to the ground
ice burn of the soul
in light in sickness and in death
infected every word and every thought
and every single breath
twisted by design
the creeps deep inside of me
feedin off this hunger, rage
and the insecurity
tempted by the rage
I feed off nothing but myself
thirsty for the things
that make me do this to myself
my pen is dripping words along
to scrape the smile off my face
every detour leads me here
to shower in this waste
you are my friend
but now your just living all over me
You watch me when I get it right
you watch me when I fall
Watch me every single day
listen to everything I say
and I swear I never wanted you
I never needed anything
from your twised fucked up lying
words asleep at the wheel.
Ultimate Devotion
One o one point one Fahrenheit
To some it's a fever, to her it's just right
and I can't hold her
and it's bringin' me down
her blood runs hot but her heart beats cold
a devil with an angels face I've been told
I think I'll press my luck next time you're around
I'd walk through fire for you
I'd burn in hell to make it all true
I never loved anyone else in this world but you
a thousand reasons why I try to prove to you
I'm not the other guy
I don't give a damn what other people think
a flare for the strange and a temper like a whip
a soft hand clutches a riding crop grip
smell of latex rubber-drives me insane
beat him once then send him on his way
there's no room in your life for anyone to stay
engrave your moniker in welts of pain
there's nothin I wouldn't do to prove
to make these words I promised true
I'd rather live my life alone than without you
you know I'd rather die then to fuck this up
wouldn't get another try
got one chance there's nothing I wouldn't do
you be my master I'll be your servant
on my knees I beg to be abused
You can take the skin right off my back
with a riding crop or a leather strap
I'd take it all just to be with you
King Alvarez
Grey sky man is talking to the sidewalk once again
your perfect vision of the world it goes unheard
as the rain falls down on your head
it slips inside the cracks of another fruitless day
here in the land of King Alvarez
you're losing once again
it's getting harder to survive
when the world that's all around you
just don't seem to care
and the universe you've built for yourself
is caving in right on you
and the streets are getting colder
then they used to be these days and now
I see you walkin' down the boulevard alone
and your screaming at the top of your lungs all night
and I wonder to myself
how did you get to be this king without a throne
its just another sunny day
here in the land of Babylon
to see the things that no one sees
to hear the lies that no one tells
its getting lonely in this place
gettin tired of it all
Chorus
Asking for the World
I'm not asking for that much
I only want the truth
when you tell me how you feel
I'm not gonna play the games
that make you feel like shit
I'm not asking for the world
How many times must we tell each other
lies and separate our lives
I wonder what went wrong
I'm not askin' for the world
when were young it's only fun
it's just the chances that you take
now we're grown up and we're fucked up
and we make the same mistakes
we keep repeating the same beating
like it's not a choice to make
and then we're lying and denying
what we won't refuse to change
I feel like I've been through so much shit
so many dysfunctional relationships
that I don't know what to feel anymore
I'm not asking for that much
just be real with me
I'm not asking for the world
Tattoo
Another desperate call you're not around
I got a head so full of worry
cuz you're nowhere to be found
displaced and out of order I've been down
on my hands and knees so many nights
crawling around this place for days
well I know you heard me say it all before
I can bleed myself so many times
before I start to doubt
but this time I'm gonna let it go
you're way too far away
and I got too much that I wanna say
and now I'm hangin on to every word
I never said to you
here in this phone booth
guess I'll wait around and pay my dues
tonight I got a new best friend
chemical inebriation
I'm passin time without you all alone
I was never one for patience
I was never one for trust
I'm a little bit neurotic so
ignore me if you must
this brain of mine won't let me let it go
I'm not gonna let you get away
I got too much that I wanna say
Chorus
Just Like Me
I want your misery
I want you to be what I hate in me
I make you twist your mind
so you can be just like me
you got a lot that you try to hide
you need a hand
to reach deep inside of you
I don't think I like you now
but I will when you're someone else
Metamorphosize wanna make you ride inside my eyes
I wanna make you play those games with me
this perversion waits inside for you
tortured visions of yourself here on display
gotta moment and I'll tell a lie
gotta secret that can't deny
I don't want somebody else
wanna make you destroy yourslef
then I want you to take it out on me
I don't care about the things that make us different
I'm gonna make you change
and you'll see yet
that I can do all this cuz I got no self esteem
I'm not gonna tell you lies
I'm unhealthy and dysfunctional
it's no suprise that I can't wait to make you
just like me
Matchbook
I can see it in your eyes
I can hear it in your voice
the signs are obvious
that all we had has run its course
and I don't mind giving up the upper hand
in this little charade
cuz I've spent too many nights here on the floor
waiting for something inside you to change
don't look back in anger now is all that you can say
cuz angers all I got to keep me warm when you're away
and I know that this is nothing new
but tonight is all I know
disconnect myself from your memory
and never feel anything at all
and all your words and all your actions
don't mean anything to me
cuz I've cut you off
so here we stand and face each other
we've got nothing to say
a flashback to another time
when silence was a welcomed friend
now I'm sorry I can never really say
all the things goin on inside my head
silence is a justified expression of my war
now nothings like it was before
chorus
Don't look back in anger its just a memory
its easy to forget your face
and it's easy to survive in this place
without you without you
I just comb my hair and wash my face
keep straight ahead and keep my pace
well I got my friends I got my pen
I got a million distractions to keep me warm
and I all I know is that it will be alright.